Not Having to Hate School

The Burden of the Student

How could a student ever like school?
Think as you will, but a student's no fool.
Rise before sun has shown,
and its rays through the sky have sewn.
Follow the ant-like movement
To wherever the teacher has sent.

How could a student ever like school?
Think as you will, but a student's no fool.
Think of dreams broken on sight.
Of doing, without a single fight.
Think of a childhood, wasting away,
Think of the sorrow at the end of the day.

How could a student ever like school?
Think as you will, but a student's no fool.
A stigma couldn't help but be born,
from a child whose life to school be sworn.



I contemplated making pictures for this blog and then I decided that 1. Would take too much time and 2. I can probably communicate my feels better through words this time.

If you can't get the "deeper meaning" as they say, of that poem, what I'm trying to say is that pretty much my entire life I've hated school, and it wasn't really by choice. Hating school was just as much a choice as doing school.

And I know people who like school and my mom are going to be like, "Oh michelle such a pessimist!" or "Oh michelle hate is such a strong word!"

I know hate is a really strong word but in all honesty my entire life there was nothing that I wanted to do LESS than school, and you know what I've been doing my entire life? School.

Its not because mom was a bad teacher or she did everything wrong or anything, its just that it was something that I had to do, and I also felt as though I had to spend a lot of time and energy disliking it. I think that adults sometimes forget that kids/young adults don't know/remember what its like to not do school during the "school year".

Someone is also probably thinking, "wow school would have been so much easier for her if she'd just embraced it and accepted the fact that she had to do it."

Yeah well when was the time in your not totally-mature and wise-adult life that you embraced something you hated and were like, "wow! I'm genuinely surprised! This isn't half bad!"

So when I knew that I was starting at a Junior College, I was excited but mostly I was sulky and annoyed and sad that the easiest days of school were behind me (being that that isn't saying much).

But then it started and I was like,
"What is this madness?"

Its literally like a constant party. Not like a crazy all-night-college-party, but its like, I get to got to school three days a week and see my friends every single time I got there. I get to play games in between class and nap in comphy chairs and meet new people and write two page double space papers and bring my own lunches.

Like, is this just college or is this what all school is like? Is this the real life....or is this a fantasy?

I get to be with people...ALL THE TIME. I have Teachers that specialize in what they're teaching me. I run by the clock and pack my own bag.

I make plans to meet with friends like every hour and in between, I'm making new friends.

Its ridiculous. And probably the coolest thing that's ever happened to me.

I feel like its still summer, but not the kind of summer that you quickly learn to hate, the kind of summer that is full of scheduled activities that you love to do.

So the main point here is, I'm able to spend a lot less time dreading school and doing school and hating school.

So a lot more time to enjoy being a teenager and having like .2 responsibilities.

-Michelle