Dear Amy

Where Everything Is That I'm Doing Right Now (and then a cry for help)

I thought you would like an update, especially since you pretty much already know everything about me *smiley face*

SCHOOL: Well, you know, school is just one of those things, kind of like cleaning the dog or your room. You don't want to do it at all, and there is nothing enjoyable about doing it, but its the result that you want/need, and so that's why you just have to grit your teeth and do it. The only problem is, cleaning your room and cleaning the dog are things that take four hours, tops, and school takes....well. like twelve years. But I'm doing Algebra 2, and the farther I get the more I find myself thinking, "Every American is smart enough to do this?", lets just say, I've gained a lot of respect for our country.

DANCE: dancing is kind of like sleeping, or eating. Its not just that you want to sleep, you also want the result, which is, not being tired. Its not just that you want to eat, because eating is great, you want to be satisfied, because being satisfied, is also great. I think about dancing a lot, and I dance a lot, but what I do even more than dancing, is think about how depressed I am about how I'm not a very good dancer. It happens so much and its such a roller coaster between depression and victory, that I've decided that its just one of those things that you have to ignore and wait for it to pass. And what do I do while I'm waiting? Dance. Because the more I dance, the bigger the chance of me getting past being depressed about it, and the bigger the chance of me winning.

I realized that when I watch someone really talented dancing, I don't usually thing, "wow they're really talented I could never do that" (which is what I should probably be thinking), instead I think either, "they must have practiced that forever," or "I could do that." not in like a "pfft, I'm so talented I can do anything," way, but in a "If I try hard enough and spend enough time on it, I can figure it out." So its like I'm realizing that I think that its not all talent that makes someone a great dancer, but time and practice. And dance is one of the first things that I've ever wanted to spend time and practice on to get better at.

KOREAN: I don't know that many words, but I just learned 1-10, and by doing so I learned 1-100. So that's cool. The little square of Korean on my wall is now dedicated not just the alphabet but also,

- body parts (the only of which I know by heart are, eyes, shoulder, hand, fingers, lips, and arms)

- numbers (eel, ee, sam, sa, oh, yuk, chil, pal, goo, ship YEAYUH. One day to learn those. Imma winner. The way I managed that was I cut out little pictures of k-pop bands and I put their number over how many were in the band, so 1- jeremy, 2 - TVXQ, 3 - JYJ, 4 - 2NE1, 5 - Shinee, 6 - 2PM, 7 - Block B, 8 - Super Junior, 9 - Girls Generation, 10 - Super Junior. Everything is easier to learn when you get to stare at beautiful people.)

- clothing, ( I just put this up and the only one I know by heart is jacket. Which, in Korean, is jacket.)

- colors (A couple are pretty much the same, pink (ping-ku) white, (hu-white-uh), and orange (or-ang-ee)

- and simple words like hello, thank you, mother, father, sister, brother, excuse me, and such.

I will, soon, put up days of the week and emotions. Probably nouns, at some point, too.

In other news, I got the part as the Wardrobe in the play. The awesomeness/overwhelmingness of it hasn't hit me yet. I mean, I'm practically one of the main characters. I'm like in the top-ten biggest characters (not literally though. I'm the second literal biggest character, next to the beast, eh hehehe). Though, I must say, this is quite a great undertaking, I'm a mezzo soprano (second soprano) which is the nice way of saying, "you can't really sing the alto part or the soprano part." Just kidding...kind of. But anyway, shes an opera singer, so I really gotta work on the vocals and such. Also the lines, gotta work on those too.

And, like I said at the beginning of this post, I said something about a cry for help, and what I meant by that was,

You are an incredible pianist, and you, and you alone have the power to break my chains of enslavement, and set me freeee!

What I'm saying, all metaphors aside, is, mom said that if you teach me piano when you come home, I don't have to continue taking lessons from Mrs. Stern.

Now, I don't know if you realize what an opportunity this is (with my playing-by-ear skills and your play-by-the-music-like-a-BOSS skills combined, we can change the world!). I mean I don't think you know what its like taking lessons from Mrs. Stern.

I will share with you some golden quotes to enlighten you a little.

"Its not so much about having perfect notes..its about having perfect notes and rhythm, every time."

"You can play the Entertainer at the recital!" - her
"Oh, so I can play songs that I've learned before this year?" - me, thinking I could play my Beatles songs too. (keep in mind, I learned the Entertainer like three years ago)
"No." - her.

"*contradiction of some kind that I can't remember*" - her
"*asks what she means, since she contradicted herself*" - me
"*asks what I mean.*" - her
"*I explain the contradiction that she has just told me.*" - me.
"Ok....I've given you too much information." - her.

Just think, with out powers combined, we can learn both Wedding Dress AND Very Good Words! (already pretty much figured VGW out. I'll sing it to you with real tears next time I see you.)

Anyway. Think about it. Think, think about it.

-Michelle