One of Those Days

Today has been one of those days. You know, one of those days where, in the span of about 17 hours of wakeness, you question your existence mainly because:

1. At one point I wasn't hungry at the time I was supposed to be, so I started to think maybe I have a disease.
2. At another point I didn't have any energy and I hoped that it wouldn't last forever.
3. I tried to dance but I wasn't feelin' it, so then I thought, "I'm a horrible dancer, why am I so dumb? and untalented? WHY DO I LIVE!" (I loved the chonny gif, by the way. "Thats it. I'm just gonna be a garbage man.")

And then by the end of the day I realized that I'd gone from this

 to this,

About seventeen times.

And then I was sad because I was on the computer a lot and I couldn't seem to get happy off the computer, and I thought, "maybe I'll never be happy off the computer ever again."

Which really scared me. And then I realized, "I'm a teenager. This is supposed to happen every day, right?"

PFFT

Teenagerism, eat it!

All I have to say is I'd much rather be happy when I want to be happy and same with being hungry, having energy, and I wish I could just be a good dancer all the time.

Someday, Kai. Someday.

I pretty much wish I could just be inspired.....24/7.

Also its really hard to be inspired when you're hot. and our parents have recently decided, "no no no no no we will not turn on the air conditioner under any circumstances in April.", even though we live in Missouri and saying something like that is like say, "The temperature will stay the same all week."

OK well now that the mostly depressing part is over, time to tell you about all the other interesting stuff that happened today! Actually, nothing happened today except for what is happening right now, which is, enrolling in JCCC.

UGH. As inspired as I want to feel, I think I'm just now realizing...yeah....Juco is not going to make me love school or anything.

So anyway I'm enrolling for English, Sign Language, and.....Biology.

I'm also going to enroll for math too. Yippie, I'm so super excited to do that.


Being grown up isn't cool. It just hard and kind of aggravating.

But Y Si Fuera Ella by SHINee is helping. This song is beautiper.

I wrote a list of things to do when you're depressed and uninspired, and then I realized that they all had to do with doing something and listening to music or hanging out with awesome people....

I know I'll wake up tomorrow and be like, 

and then do some dancing and totally own.


Good thing that's how it works, or I might just bury myself into a hole of shame and sadness.

-Michelle